||[Feb. 23rd, 2004|02:16 pm]
|||||Jesus Jones: "Real, Real, Real"||]|
I've been a bitch to certain people who didn't deserve it. I do regret it. Some people get caught in the crossfire. Others don't seem to make sense and make me feel like they are deceiving me, which causes me to get defensive. I'm not a very nice person when I'm being defensive. It's not always their fault. It is sometimes mine too, and I am sorry.
I do, however, refuse to change my opinions for the purpose of becoming more "popular". Sorry, that's just not me.
Just because I point something out in someone that is not necessarily good, it doesn't mean I am trying to attack them.
As far as Craig, Berlin, and Brandon are concerned, I just flat out don't want to have anything to do with them. Period. End of story. There are no ifs, ands, or buts about it. If that reflects poorly on me or makes me look bad, so be it. I don't care if you want to be friends with them, just as long as you don't expect me to do the same. To me, the bad outweighs the good with them and I don't want to be another casualty of the bad.
There are people who aren't as nice as they seem, just like there are people who are more nice than they seem.
Some people should question who they consider to be "real". Maybe they should question what "real" means to them as well. Even I question what is "real". It gives new perspective to things in my life besides from just the people in it.
I don't like seeing people complain about how others are when the people they are friends with exemplify those very same complaints. It doesn't make much sense to me. If you surround yourself with friends who project something you dislike, you are going to be plagued by that certain something. Isn't that obvious?